I am so glad to be sharing this post on last day of 2014 so I can wish you a proper and timely Happy New Year. I was afraid it wasn't going to happen after being knocked flat by the flu this last week. Today is the first day I can think clearly enough to convey my thoughts coherently without wanting to fall asleep every ten minutes and it feels great.
I've never been much of a New Year's person. I don't like the loud, raucous parties, silly party hats, and large crowds of strangers. Thankfully, Peter shares the same feelings about New Year's, and throughout our entire marriage, we have been more than content to enjoy New Year's Eve just the two of us. We usually enjoy an early dinner at one of our favorite restaurants and then cozy up on the couch in our pajamas and watch a movie until midnight. Most years, we don't even bother to watch the ball drop in New York City.
These last two years, I've noticed that I have become more reflective at the end of the year. 2013 and 2014 exacted an emotional toll on me and I'm still picking up the pieces and recovering, slowly but surely. Peter is finally restored to health. My great-aunt moved to Italy this past March to be near the majority of her family and is well taken care of and no longer lonely. Everything is as it should be and I how I prayed for it to be so many times, but I still feel anxious and on edge most of the time, wondering to myself, when is the next shoe going to drop? It's an awful feeling.
Nevertheless, I am moving forward. I'm learning to make room for the anxiety to just be but not allow it to prevent me from doing activities and projects that I value. My goal for this new year is to make much more room for hope and promise--so much more room for those two things that it leaves little to no more room for the anxiety that has taken root in my heart.
I'm hoping that balance continues to be restored to my life and that I handle challenges with more patience and grace. I'm promising myself to continue good self-care: going to all my wellness check-ups, eating healthfully, getting enough rest and starting my Yoga practice again. I want to add healthier habits and routines that bring me calm and comfort. I want to spend more balanced time on social media so I can make the time to start reading for pleasure again and take up a long-lost hobby from my childhood: crocheting (hello, Craftsy lessons!). I want this year and future years to continue to be simpler which for me means fewer things, fewer complications, more connection, more gratitude, new experiences, and relationships with people who are loving, supportive and encouraging.
Things will also be changing on the blogging front. A re-design is (finally) in the works after two years of false starts, pauses and delays. I'm re-evaluating my blogging life: how I want to structure my blog and how I want to write. I no longer feel the pressure of do-what-everyone-else-is-doing and am finally going to move forward differently, more simply and in a way that works best for me.
Happy New Year, Friends. Here's to moving forward together.
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